SPN CAPSLOCK POST!

[rogueslayer452]

OMFG NOOOOOOO!!!! CAS, DON'T GIVE UP! PLEASE, DON'T GIVE UP HOPE! D: D: D:

;________;

THIS IS ME RIGHT NOW:



LIKE, OKAY. THIS EPISODE WAS JUST FUCKING AMAZING. SO MANY AMAZING THINGS HAPPENED, FROM THEM DYING AND GOING TO HEAVEN - AN INTERESTING WAY OF LOOKING AT HEAVEN, MATRIX-LIKE AND KINDA SCARY WITH ZACHARIAH AND HIS CRONIES LOOKING FOR THEM - AND THE DREAM-LIKE STATE THEY'RE IN. IT WAS VERY COOL. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, SOOOO FUCKING DEPRESSING AND HEARTBREAKING. LIKE, MY GOD. WHAT THE HELL.

SHOW, WHY DO YOU CONTINUE TO BREAK MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS? YOU BROKE DEAN MANY TIMES, AND NOW YOU'RE SHATTERING MY BB CASTIEL? HIS FAITH IS BEING STRIPPED FROM HIM, AND THAT ENDING JUST, OMG.

I CRIED. I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT THAT I CRIED BECAUSE CASTIEL IS THE EMBODIMENT OF FAITH FOR DEAN. DEAN HIMSELF IS BUILDING UP WITH THAT FAITH AND HOPE THAT CASTIEL HAS BEEN SHOWING HIM, AND NOW WITH CASTIEL LOSING THAT HOPE AND FAITH? JUST, FUCK. ;____; WHERE ARE THEY NOW? AND HE TOSSED BACK THE AMULET SAYING "IT'S WORTHLESS" AND THEN DEAN THREW IT IN THE TRASH? GOD WHY SHOW, WHYYYYY??? D: D: D:

RIGHT NOW IT SEEMS THAT SAMMY IS THE ONLY ONE WITH THE OUNCE OF HOPE LEFT, DESPITE EVERYTHING. I REALLY REALLY HOPE HE RETRIEVES THE AMULET FROM THE BIN BECAUSE, DAMN.

I JUST. I HAVE NO COHERENT WORDS RIGHT NOW OTHER THAN THAT. PERHAPS MORE LATER. BECAUSE I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT WHAT WE LEARNED HERE.

JUST. GODDAMN.

*GOES BACK CURLED UP IN A BALL CRYING HER HEART OUT*

Comments

[trinaweena.livejournal.com]

this episode killed me

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I AM STILL CRYING. JESUS CHRIST.

[vikki.livejournal.com]

THE WORST PART IS, IT'S SAM'S TURN TO GET BROKEN NOW.

FOR SOME REASON I CANNOT SEEM TO REACT PROPERLY TO CASTIEL'S BETRAYAL. HE'S JUST. LOST. IT HURTS ME. BUT RIGHT NOW I AM SO WORRIED THAT HE WON'T STEP UP TO THE PLATE AND HE'LL CAST ALL HIS HURT AND HIS NEED FOR DIRECTION ON DEAN AND DEAN DOESN'T NEED THAT. PLEASE SHOW, PLEASE NOOOOOOOO

IN OTHER NEWS, KRIPKE SUCKS AND I LOVE HIM ANYWAY.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I REALLY THINK THAT CASTIEL'S BROKENNESS IS GOING TO MIRROR DEAN'S, AND I AM TERRIBLY WORRIED THAT WE'RE GOING TO BE SEEING WHAT FUTURE!CAS WAS. LOSS OF FAITH. LOSS OF HOPE. JUST, OH GOD CASTIEL NO. I THINK DEAN EVEN SAW THAT TOO, HIS EXPRESSION WHEN CASTIEL WAS CURSING HEAVEN, CURSING GOD....AND THEN WITH THE AMULET. MY GOD. IT BREAKS ME EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT.

I JUST REALLY HOPE THAT DEAN HELPS CAS BUILD BACK HIS FAITH, REGAIN AND STILL HAVE HOPE. BECAUSE EVEN IF DEAN DOESN'T FULLY BELIEVE HE KNOWS THAT CASTIEL'S FAITH IS ALL HE HAS LEFT. WITHOUT IT. JUST. D: D: D: D:

KRIPKE IS A MAGNIFICENT BASTARD. HE REALLY IS.

[qwertypoiuq.livejournal.com]

I CRIED. I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT THAT I CRIED BECAUSE CASTIEL IS THE EMBODIMENT OF FAITH FOR DEAN. DEAN HIMSELF IS BUILDING UP WITH THAT FAITH AND HOPE THAT CASTIEL HAS BEEN SHOWING HIM, AND NOW WITH CASTIEL LOSING THAT HOPE AND FAITH? JUST, FUCK. ;____; WHERE ARE THEY NOW? AND HE TOSSED BACK THE AMULET SAYING "IT'S WORTHLESS" AND THEN DEAN THREW IT IN THE TRASH? GOD WHY SHOW, WHYYYYY??? D: D: D:

THIS. JUST. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. CAS. DEEEEAN. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOYS. ADFGJK MY HEART.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

EXACTLY MY SCATTERED THOUGHTS RIGHT NOW. BOOOOYYSSS! D: PATCH YOURSELVES UP. HURT/COMFORT EACH OTHER, PLEASE.

SHOW HURTS ME SO MUCH. ;_____;

[dauntperplexity.livejournal.com]

I was yelling at my TV for Dean to give Castiel a hug. This episode was definitely a rollercoaster ride.

I seriously couldn't believe Castiel... He made me tear. Damn you, Misha Collins and you're amazing acting.

And I do have to say that I really liked Joshua.

*sigh*

This episode was amazing.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

SRSLY! DID YOU SEE THAT LOOK DEAN WAS GIVING CAS AT THE END? HE WAS SO INCREDULOUS THAT CASTIEL WOULD EVEN SAY WHAT HE DID AND GIVE UP LIKE THAT, ESP WITH THE AMULET. D:

JUST, OMG. MISHA BROKE MY HEART IN THIS EP. HIS FACE. OMG, HIS FACE. :((((

JOSHUA IS COOL. YAY, FINALLY ANOTHER GOOD ANGEL BESIDES CAS!

GOD, THIS SHOW.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

ME TOO, BB. ME TOO.

FUCK, THIS SHOW MAKES ME WANT TO HAVE TONS OF CHOCOLATE TO EASE THE DEPRESSION. D:

[thefreshchuff.livejournal.com]

GOD I WAS CRYING THE MOMENT DEAN AND BB!SAM STARTED LIGHTING THE FIREWORKS, AND I HARDLY STOPPED THE WHOLE EPISODE THROUGH.

WHAT A BURN TO SAM TOO, DEAN THROWING AWAY THE AMULET. HE BETTER GET IT OUT OF THE TRASH!!

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

THAT SCENE WITH DEAN AND WEE!SAM WAS JUST SO AMAZING. DEAN HAVING THIS JOYOUS EXPRESSION ON HIS FACE, PERHAPS A RARE MOMENT FOR US TO SEE SUCH PURE JOY FROM HIM. RELIVING A GOOD MEMORY. I TEARED UP THEM, BUT IT WAS HAPPY TEARS.

BUT THE ENDING WAS JUST, GOD. SO FUCKING DEPRESSING. THIS SHOW DOES THAT. STARTS OUT KINDA LIGHTHEARTED ONLY TO END WITH GUT-WRENCHING SADNESS.

IKR? JESUS CHRIST, THIS SHOW. IT DOES THINGS TO ME. I CARE ABOUT THESE CHARACTERS SFM THAT I JUST WANT THEM TO BE ALRIGHT. CASTIEL WAS THE BREAK FOR ME, BECAUSE HE'S ALWAYS HAD THIS FAITH. AND NOW? NOW WHAT WILL HE DO? I JUST DON'T KNOW. I DON'T WANT HIM TO BREAK, I DON'T WANT HIM TO GO DOWNHILL. JUST, NO. DEAN HELP YOUR CASTIEL! D:

[mulder200.livejournal.com]

OOMG! POOR CAS! POOR DEAN! THEY HAVE BOTH LOST HOPE AND IT'S SO DEPRESSING.

I THINK I FEEL THE WORST FOR CAS THOUGH. AS LONG AS CAS BELIEVED AND HAD HIS FAITH IN GOD, THEN DEAN HAD SOME HOPE BUT NOW. . .CAS HIS LOST HIS FAITH IN GOD. I MEAN WHAT ARE THEY SUPPOSED TO DO NOW?!

WE NEED FANFICTION FAST! SOMEONE NEEDS TO WRITE SOME DEAN/CASTIEL, SAM/CASTIEL OR SAM AND CASTIEL OT SOME TEAM FREE WILL HURT/COMFORT FIC IMMEDIATELY.

AS A MATTER OF FACT, HERE'S ONE NOW:

Broken Knees by mia6363.
http://mia6363.livejournal.com/24356.html

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I THINK I FEEL THE WORST FOR CAS THOUGH. AS LONG AS CAS BELIEVED AND HAD HIS FAITH IN GOD, THEN DEAN HAD SOME HOPE BUT NOW. . .CAS HIS LOST HIS FAITH IN GOD. I MEAN WHAT ARE THEY SUPPOSED TO DO NOW?!

THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS EXACTLY, BB. I'M LIKE, CASTIEL HAD ONLY TWO THINGS LEFT: HIS FAITH AND BELIEF IN GOD, AND HIS FAITH AND HOPE IN DEAN. AND EVEN IF DEAN DOESN'T WHOLLY BELIEVE, HE IS WILLING TO TRY FOR CAS. NOW, WITH HIS FAITH IN GOD DIMINISHED, OR AT LEAST FAITH IN HIS ENTIRE MISSION, HE FEELS HELPLESS AND HOPELESS. WHICH LEADS TO DEAN FEELING THE SAME, BECAUSE WITHOUT CAS HAVING THAT FAITH ANYMORE IT'S LIKE...WHERE DO THEY GO FROM HERE?

DEAN, NOW IS THE TIME TO HUG YOUR ANGEL, DAMMIT.

I HAVE A FEELING THAT SAM IS GOING TO BE PROVEN USEFUL THIS SEASON BY PATCHING THINGS UP, MAKING AMENDS AND REDEEMING HIMSELF THROUGH GIVING THAT HOPE BACK TO HIS BROTHER AND CASTIEL. FOCUSING HIS ENERGY AWAY FROM THE ANGER BOILING INSIDE OF HIM AND USING IT FOR POSITIVE THINGS. OR SOMETHING.

GOD. I NEED SOME SERIOUS FLUFF AND HURT/COMFORT FIC AFTER THIS. DAMN.

[wingsunfurled.livejournal.com]

I KEEP TRYING TO SAY SOMETHING COHERENT AFTER THIS EPISODE BUT ALL I CAN MANAGE IS - CAAAASSSSSSSSS ;____;

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

MY BB CAAAAASSSS! D: MY HEART, IT BREAKS FOR HIM MOST OF ALL.

[silverusagi]

SHOW, WHY DID YOU BREAK MY ANGEL?

And where did Castiel go, anyway? He's not searching for God anymore, he needs to stay with Dean, WHO IS ALL HE HAS LEFT.

Throwing away the pendant--NOOOO DEAN. THAT WAS SAMMY'S PRESENT TO YOU. Sam better have fished it out of the trash!

Dean and Little Sam looked so happy with the fireworks. Dean's memory with his mom was bittersweet. Zachariah is CREEPY. Weirdly, Sam seems the most okay at the end of the ep. Maybe going to Heaven and realizing he's not damned will give him the will to say no to Lucifer.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I'M WONDERING THAT TOO. HE PROBABLY WENT TO TAKE IT ALL IN, CONTEMPLATE THE NEWS THAT GOD ISN'T GOING TO INTERVENE (AND I HAS META THOUGHTS ON THAT, BUT THAT'LL BE WHEN MY BRAIN STOPS CHURNING NONSENSICAL BLABBER, HEH) OR HE MIGHT GET DRUNK. IDK.

I'M JUST WORRIED ABOUT HIM. I WANT HIM TO CONTINUE HIS SEARCH, DESPITE ALL THAT WAS SAID I WANT CASTIEL TO FIND GOD AND EITHER ASK HIM OR DEMAND THINGS OR WHATEVER. JUST BECAUSE OF WHAT JOSHUA SAID DOESN'T MEAN THAT HE SHOULDN'T TRY. I WAS SAD THAT DEAN DIDN'T CONVINCE HIM OTHERWISE LIKE HE DID IN "FREE TO BE YOU AND ME". BUT THAT'S BECAUSE DEAN, TOO, WAS BROKEN IN THIS EPISODE.

THEY'RE JUST FUCKING WITH THEM SO BAD, AREN'T THEY? WANTING TO BREAK THEM SO THERE'S LITTLE TO NOTHING LEFT OF THEIR FAITH. D:

I'M BETTING SAM DOES FISH IT OUT AND GIVES IT TO EITHER DEAN OR CASTIEL IN THE NEXT EPISODE. BECAUSE HOW COULD HE NOT? IT'S THE AMULET DAMMIT!

ZACHARIAH WAS FUCKING CREEPY IN THIS EPISODE, MORE SO THAN USUAL. HOW HE WAS WITH MEMORY!MARY. *SHUDDERS*

JUST, GOD. THIS EPISODE. I AM SO HAPPY WITH IT, YET IT FEELS ME WITH SUCH SADNESS. ESP FOR CAS. ;___;

[cheerful-earl.livejournal.com]

THEY BROKE THE ANGEL! WHY DID THEY BREAK THE ANGEL!? OH CASTIEL.

Nothing about this episode wasn't absolutely heartbreaking. Pie! They made pie sad! Even Cas' snarky moments ("Condolences") are sad, because they're so human and I don't want human Future!Cas. I want our Cas. Cas' faith is gone, and Dean can't even help him like he did in "Free to Be" because what little faith he had in his father, God, everything, is just gone.

I loved everyone in this episode, but seriously, how is Misha onscreen for 2.5 seconds and just blows my mind? The man is amazing. His *face* when he was leaning against the partition... Oh.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

BECAUSE THEY LOVE TO TORTURE HIM AND US, THAT'S WHY!! D: D: D:

I DON'T WANT HUMAN FUTURE!CAS EITHER, WHICH I DON'T THINK WE'LL GET, BUT I'M WORRIED FOR HIS SAKE BECAUSE WITHOUT HIS FAITH WHAT ELSE DOES HE HAVE? I MEAN, HE HAS DEAN OF COURSE, BUT IS THAT ENOUGH TO HOLD HIM UPRIGHT? EVEN DEAN WAS LOSING HIMSELF IN THIS EPISODE. IT'S JUST, OH MAN. IT'S BREAKING ME ALL OVER AGAIN.

BUT I GUESS THIS MEANS THAT CAS IS FULLY PART OF THE TEAM NOW, THEY BROKE HIM SO SUFFICIENTLY IN THAT VERY LAST SCENE. AND IT'S NOT SPN UNLESS SOMEONE GETS BROKEN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER.

I JUST HOPE OUR BB CAS GETS HEALED AND REGAINS HIS FAITH AGAIN. AND THAT DEAN GIVES HIM A HUGE HUG. BECAUSE WE NEED THAT HUG, DAMMIT.

GOD, THAT LAST SCENE KILLED ME. MISHA'S FACE!!!! D: BREAKING MY HEART THERE, BB. HE IS AMAZING. HE CAN MAKE ME SQUEE AND THEN WIBBLE TEARFULLY ALMOST INSTANTLY. ;___;

[squaringkarma.livejournal.com]

SHOW WAS SUFFICIENTLY AWESOME THIS WEEK \O/

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

YES IT WAS! \O/ I'M ALL DEPRESSED AND SHIT BUT IT WAS A FANTASTIC EPISODE ALL THE SAME.

[entangled-now.livejournal.com]

I AM HOPING SO HARD THAT SAM FISHED THE AMULET OUT OF THE BIN.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

HE BETTER. BECAUSE THAT IS PERHAPS A SYMBOLISM OF FAITH HOLDING THEM ALL TOGETHER AT THIS POINT.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

WUMPED!CASTIEL JUST BREAKS MY HEART. OMG.

GOD, THAT ENDING. I KEPT CHANTING "PLEASE DON'T GO CAS! PLEASE HAVE FAITH! PLEASE!" BECAUSE DAMN, THAT WAS JUST SO HEARTWRENCHING I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE IT. I JUST WOKE UP AND MY HEART STILL IS SUNK FROM BEING SO DEPRESSED FROM THE EPISODE.

IT WAS AN AMAZING EPISODE, BUT GODDAMN. LEAVE IT TO BE ANGSTY TO HAVE ME ALL INCOHERENT AND BAFFLED LIKE THIS. :((((

[aliasagent.livejournal.com]

Have not seen the episode yet but I just thought I'd say I love your icon :D :D

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

THANK YOU, BB! :D

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I honestly like that God isn't intervening. Not that he doesn't care, since I think he does, but more simply because he can't. This isn't his fight, it's humanity's. It's the angels. It's placing that balance back once again by their hands. Also, I think this is a testament of faith, seeing who continues to be faithful and loyal to the good cause and who isn't, and in the end they'll get that final judgment. And I truly believe in this.

I just hope that Castiel regains his faith and that Dean does too, because lacking in faith seems to be the first sign of defeat, and I believe it's that strength of faith that'll help them get through this together.

[philstar22.livejournal.com]

This episode was so heart wrenching and yet so good. I almost cried at the end. Poor Cas and poor Dean. I now want to go read fics where they find hope and faith in each other and comfort each other.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

PRETTY MUCH WHAT I'M GONNA DO, TOO. SO MUCH HEARTACHE. THEY GIVE US THE HURT BUT NOT THE COMFORT (HUG BOYS, DAMMIT!) AND AFTER THIS EPISODE, THERE IS MUCH NEEDED COMFORT FOR ALL OF THEM. DEAN AND CASTIEL RESPECTIVELY BECAUSE, OMG.

KRIPKE, YOU DID IT AGAIN YOU BASTARD. ILU.

[alanna-zero.livejournal.com]

The ending with Cas was so freaking depressing. And then Dean throwing away his amulet... ;___; It was like he was throwing "his faith" away too... :(

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

IKR? JFC SHOW, YOU MANAGE TO BREAK ME EVEN MORE WITH JUST THAT ALONE. D:

LIKE, I CAN HANDLE THE BOYS BEING ALL BROKEN AND SHIT. THEY'VE SURVIVED ALL OF THAT AND MORE. BUT CAS? FUCK, THAT WAS JUST THE TOPPING OF THIS DEPRESSING CAKE, DUDE. FOR REALS. MY HEART STILL ACHES FOR HIM, MY POOR BB. :((((

[icecoldrain.livejournal.com]

I REALLY REALLY HOPE HE RETRIEVES THE AMULET FROM THE BIN BECAUSE, DAMN.
OF COURSE HE DID, BECAUSE I CAN'T PICTURE HIM LEAVING IT THERE IN THE TRASH.

AND I LOVED THIS EPISODE. IT WAS AN INTERESTING VERSION OF HEAVEN, AND IT WAS NEAT SEEING WHAT THEIR BETTER MEMORIES WERE.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

HOW HEARTBREAKING WAS IT TO SEE THE DIFFERENCES OF THEIR OWN HAPPINESS? DEAN'S IS ALL ABOUT FAMILY, SAM IS WHEN HE'S AWAY FROM FAMILY. THERE'S THAT WHOLE INDEPENDENCE THING I'M SURE, BUT DAMN IF THAT DIDN'T PUNCH DEAN IN THE GUT. IT MAKES ME WONDER IF FAMILY MEMBERS CAN TRAVEL IN AND OUT OF THEIR OWN PERSONAL HEAVENS AND FIND EACH OTHER, OR ARE THEY DOOMED TO FOREVER LIVE IN THOSE PERFECTLY HAPPY MEMORIES?

[alexwhitman25.livejournal.com]

I already posted most of my thoughts in your comment to my post, but one thing I forgot to expand on - I think God does care, but like you said he doesn't see this as his fight. He gave them the ability to fight by saving them and putting them on the plane, and he also brought Cas back to help. And like Joshua said, he allowed them into Heaven, even Sam after everything. It's not like God has completely sat on his ass. But he's not gonna clean up the whole mess for them either. I'm pretty excited that the God deux ex machina has been taken off the table.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I'm excited, too. It's kinda devastating for them because they thought they'd had some kind of hope of having God be on their side, and I'm positive that God is on their side otherwise he wouldn't have resurrected them and saved Castiel as well (since I believe they all serve a greater purpose and not just the ones that the angels have told them about). But God isn't going to fix things. It's on them now, and I like that. :D

This has placed much more confidence on where they are heading with this now. I'm just worried for my precious Cas, since I don't want him to fall or become human like his future!self. However, I am excited because this is more substantial material for his journey this season and his character development. It broke my heart, but I want to see him and Dean mend themselves so they can become stronger and fight this war together.

And I am babbling away, heh. In the middle of writing my review so, my mind = on overdrive, lol.

[http://users.livejournal.com/sapphirestar_/]

WATCHING THIS EPISODE, AT FIRST I WENT ":D :D :D" AND THEN I WENT ":O!" AND THEN I WENT ":D!" AGAIN AND THEN I WENT "D:" AND AFTER THAT I WENT "D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:" x A BAJILLION.

but i shall admit i wriggled like a crazy person when i saw the fabulous slashy scenes through my fandom-tinted goggles. HOW COULD I NOT HAVE. :D

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

THIS. YES. EXACTLY MY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS EPISODE. GOD THEY LOVE TO TURN UP THE ANGST X1000 MORE THAN USUAL. AND THIS EP GAVE US THAT ANGST AND THEN SOME. THEY LOVE KILLING US LIKE THIS, I SWEAR. D: OH GOD CAAAASSS.

[kitchensexslave.livejournal.com]

OH GOD, I'M SO GLAD SOMEONE ELSE WAS UPSET AND ALSO LIKED THIS EPISODE, EVERYONE SEEMS TO BE SAYING "NOOOOOOO!" BUT I'D ACTUALLY CLASS THIS WITH SOME OF SUPERNATURAL'S BEST, BECAUSE SPN IS AT ITS BEST WHEN IT'S BEING FUCKED UP!

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

THE MORE EMOTIONALLY FUCKED UP THE BETTER, TBH. I CERTAINLY THINK THIS WAS ONE OF THE BEST EPISODES OF THIS SEASON BECAUSE OF THE GUT-PUNCHING REVELATIONS - LIKE, I HATED HOW SAD IT WAS BUT, REALLY, IT WOULDN'T BE SUPERNATURAL IT THERE WASN'T WHUMPING AND HURT OF SOME KIND. AND IT REALLY DID HURT, AND I LOVE THE SHOW FOR IT.

JUST. THIS EPISODE. HEARTS AND HUGS ALL AROUND. SRSLY.

GOD. CAN YOU IMAGINE THE REST OF THE SEASON? HOW THE FUCK ARE THEY GOING TO WRAP IT ALL UP? IDEK, BB.