SPN CAPSLOCK POST!

[rogueslayer452]

OMFG NOOOOOOO!!!! CAS, DON'T GIVE UP! PLEASE, DON'T GIVE UP HOPE! D: D: D:

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THIS IS ME RIGHT NOW:



LIKE, OKAY. THIS EPISODE WAS JUST FUCKING AMAZING. SO MANY AMAZING THINGS HAPPENED, FROM THEM DYING AND GOING TO HEAVEN - AN INTERESTING WAY OF LOOKING AT HEAVEN, MATRIX-LIKE AND KINDA SCARY WITH ZACHARIAH AND HIS CRONIES LOOKING FOR THEM - AND THE DREAM-LIKE STATE THEY'RE IN. IT WAS VERY COOL. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, SOOOO FUCKING DEPRESSING AND HEARTBREAKING. LIKE, MY GOD. WHAT THE HELL.

SHOW, WHY DO YOU CONTINUE TO BREAK MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS? YOU BROKE DEAN MANY TIMES, AND NOW YOU'RE SHATTERING MY BB CASTIEL? HIS FAITH IS BEING STRIPPED FROM HIM, AND THAT ENDING JUST, OMG.

I CRIED. I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT THAT I CRIED BECAUSE CASTIEL IS THE EMBODIMENT OF FAITH FOR DEAN. DEAN HIMSELF IS BUILDING UP WITH THAT FAITH AND HOPE THAT CASTIEL HAS BEEN SHOWING HIM, AND NOW WITH CASTIEL LOSING THAT HOPE AND FAITH? JUST, FUCK. ;____; WHERE ARE THEY NOW? AND HE TOSSED BACK THE AMULET SAYING "IT'S WORTHLESS" AND THEN DEAN THREW IT IN THE TRASH? GOD WHY SHOW, WHYYYYY??? D: D: D:

RIGHT NOW IT SEEMS THAT SAMMY IS THE ONLY ONE WITH THE OUNCE OF HOPE LEFT, DESPITE EVERYTHING. I REALLY REALLY HOPE HE RETRIEVES THE AMULET FROM THE BIN BECAUSE, DAMN.

I JUST. I HAVE NO COHERENT WORDS RIGHT NOW OTHER THAN THAT. PERHAPS MORE LATER. BECAUSE I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT WHAT WE LEARNED HERE.

JUST. GODDAMN.

*GOES BACK CURLED UP IN A BALL CRYING HER HEART OUT*

Comments

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

GOD. THAT WOULD BE HEARTBREAKING IF IT WERE. IN FACT, EVERYTHING THAT DEAN CLINGS TO IS SOMETHING FROM HIS PAST, FROM HIS FAMILY. THE CAR, THE JACKET, THE MUSIC WAS HIS DAD'S. THE MEMORY OF FOOD, PROBABLY FROM HIS MOM. JUST, MY GOD. DEAAANNNN! *HUGS HIM*

ALL HIS MEMORIES HAD TO DO WITH FAMILY. ALL SAM'S MEMORIES HAD TO DO WITH HIM BEING ON HIS OWN, AWAY FROM HIS FAMILY. JUST. OMG.

THIS SHOW CONTINUES TO BREAK MY HEART IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

FUCK ME, ALL OF IT IS JUST SO DEPRESSING. I MEAN, I LOVE HOW THEY SHOW CAN BE HILARIOUS AND COMEDIC AND ACTION PACKED WITH AWESOME SHIT BUT DAMN, WHEN THEY BRING THE ANGST THEY REALLY BRING IT ON FULL FORCE.

I THINK I'M MORE UPSET OVER CASTIEL THAN ANYTHING. LIKE, HE'S BEEN THE SHINING BEACON OF HOPE FOR THE BOYS, DEAN ESPECIALLY. HE'S BEEN THERE SHOWING HIS HOPE, HIS FAITH, EVERYTHING EVEN TO HIS CHARGE THAT DOESN'T BELIEVE IN THE SAME THINGS. BUT SEEING HIM AT THE END OF THIS EPISODE, JUST KINDA GIVING UP? HIS DEVASTATION? THAT BROKE MY HEART MOST OF ALL. IT'S LIKE, FUCK. WHAT NOW? CASTIEL'S MISSION HAS BEEN TO FIND GOD, BUT WITH THIS NEWS WHAT WILL CAS DO NOW? WHERE WILL HE GO? WILL DEAN CONVINCE HIM TO CONTINUE HIS SEARCH? I'M JUST, OMG.D:

I CAN'T ARTICULATE PROPERLY HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW. I'M SAD, BUT IT WAS A FANTASTIC EPISODE. BUT SO DEPRESSING. *BREAKS DOWN AGAIN*

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

THAT'S WHAT SPN DOES, APPARENTLY. GOD, THIS EPISODE HAD ME ON A ROLLARCOASTER KINDA LIKE HOW BSG WAS. ALL EMOTIONALLY SCREWED UP AND I END UP DEPRESSED AND LOOKING FOR SOMETHING TO CHEER ME UP. GOD.

EXACTLY. SEEING CAS IN THIS STATE HURTS ME MORE THAN ANYTHING. JUST, ;______;

I DON'T THINK I CAN LOOK AT A PICSPAM WITHOUT TEARING UP. GODDAMN YOU SHOW.