SPN CAPSLOCK POST!

[rogueslayer452]

OMFG NOOOOOOO!!!! CAS, DON'T GIVE UP! PLEASE, DON'T GIVE UP HOPE! D: D: D:

;________;

THIS IS ME RIGHT NOW:



LIKE, OKAY. THIS EPISODE WAS JUST FUCKING AMAZING. SO MANY AMAZING THINGS HAPPENED, FROM THEM DYING AND GOING TO HEAVEN - AN INTERESTING WAY OF LOOKING AT HEAVEN, MATRIX-LIKE AND KINDA SCARY WITH ZACHARIAH AND HIS CRONIES LOOKING FOR THEM - AND THE DREAM-LIKE STATE THEY'RE IN. IT WAS VERY COOL. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, SOOOO FUCKING DEPRESSING AND HEARTBREAKING. LIKE, MY GOD. WHAT THE HELL.

SHOW, WHY DO YOU CONTINUE TO BREAK MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS? YOU BROKE DEAN MANY TIMES, AND NOW YOU'RE SHATTERING MY BB CASTIEL? HIS FAITH IS BEING STRIPPED FROM HIM, AND THAT ENDING JUST, OMG.

I CRIED. I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT THAT I CRIED BECAUSE CASTIEL IS THE EMBODIMENT OF FAITH FOR DEAN. DEAN HIMSELF IS BUILDING UP WITH THAT FAITH AND HOPE THAT CASTIEL HAS BEEN SHOWING HIM, AND NOW WITH CASTIEL LOSING THAT HOPE AND FAITH? JUST, FUCK. ;____; WHERE ARE THEY NOW? AND HE TOSSED BACK THE AMULET SAYING "IT'S WORTHLESS" AND THEN DEAN THREW IT IN THE TRASH? GOD WHY SHOW, WHYYYYY??? D: D: D:

RIGHT NOW IT SEEMS THAT SAMMY IS THE ONLY ONE WITH THE OUNCE OF HOPE LEFT, DESPITE EVERYTHING. I REALLY REALLY HOPE HE RETRIEVES THE AMULET FROM THE BIN BECAUSE, DAMN.

I JUST. I HAVE NO COHERENT WORDS RIGHT NOW OTHER THAN THAT. PERHAPS MORE LATER. BECAUSE I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT WHAT WE LEARNED HERE.

JUST. GODDAMN.

*GOES BACK CURLED UP IN A BALL CRYING HER HEART OUT*

Comments

[trinaweena.livejournal.com]

this episode killed me

[vikki.livejournal.com]

THE WORST PART IS, IT'S SAM'S TURN TO GET BROKEN NOW.

FOR SOME REASON I CANNOT SEEM TO REACT PROPERLY TO CASTIEL'S BETRAYAL. HE'S JUST. LOST. IT HURTS ME. BUT RIGHT NOW I AM SO WORRIED THAT HE WON'T STEP UP TO THE PLATE AND HE'LL CAST ALL HIS HURT AND HIS NEED FOR DIRECTION ON DEAN AND DEAN DOESN'T NEED THAT. PLEASE SHOW, PLEASE NOOOOOOOO

IN OTHER NEWS, KRIPKE SUCKS AND I LOVE HIM ANYWAY.

[qwertypoiuq.livejournal.com]

I CRIED. I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT THAT I CRIED BECAUSE CASTIEL IS THE EMBODIMENT OF FAITH FOR DEAN. DEAN HIMSELF IS BUILDING UP WITH THAT FAITH AND HOPE THAT CASTIEL HAS BEEN SHOWING HIM, AND NOW WITH CASTIEL LOSING THAT HOPE AND FAITH? JUST, FUCK. ;____; WHERE ARE THEY NOW? AND HE TOSSED BACK THE AMULET SAYING "IT'S WORTHLESS" AND THEN DEAN THREW IT IN THE TRASH? GOD WHY SHOW, WHYYYYY??? D: D: D:

THIS. JUST. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. CAS. DEEEEAN. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOYS. ADFGJK MY HEART.

[dauntperplexity.livejournal.com]

I was yelling at my TV for Dean to give Castiel a hug. This episode was definitely a rollercoaster ride.

I seriously couldn't believe Castiel... He made me tear. Damn you, Misha Collins and you're amazing acting.

And I do have to say that I really liked Joshua.

*sigh*

This episode was amazing.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I AM STILL CRYING. JESUS CHRIST.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I REALLY THINK THAT CASTIEL'S BROKENNESS IS GOING TO MIRROR DEAN'S, AND I AM TERRIBLY WORRIED THAT WE'RE GOING TO BE SEEING WHAT FUTURE!CAS WAS. LOSS OF FAITH. LOSS OF HOPE. JUST, OH GOD CASTIEL NO. I THINK DEAN EVEN SAW THAT TOO, HIS EXPRESSION WHEN CASTIEL WAS CURSING HEAVEN, CURSING GOD....AND THEN WITH THE AMULET. MY GOD. IT BREAKS ME EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT.

I JUST REALLY HOPE THAT DEAN HELPS CAS BUILD BACK HIS FAITH, REGAIN AND STILL HAVE HOPE. BECAUSE EVEN IF DEAN DOESN'T FULLY BELIEVE HE KNOWS THAT CASTIEL'S FAITH IS ALL HE HAS LEFT. WITHOUT IT. JUST. D: D: D: D:

KRIPKE IS A MAGNIFICENT BASTARD. HE REALLY IS.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

EXACTLY MY SCATTERED THOUGHTS RIGHT NOW. BOOOOYYSSS! D: PATCH YOURSELVES UP. HURT/COMFORT EACH OTHER, PLEASE.

SHOW HURTS ME SO MUCH. ;_____;

[thefreshchuff.livejournal.com]

GOD I WAS CRYING THE MOMENT DEAN AND BB!SAM STARTED LIGHTING THE FIREWORKS, AND I HARDLY STOPPED THE WHOLE EPISODE THROUGH.

WHAT A BURN TO SAM TOO, DEAN THROWING AWAY THE AMULET. HE BETTER GET IT OUT OF THE TRASH!!

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

SRSLY! DID YOU SEE THAT LOOK DEAN WAS GIVING CAS AT THE END? HE WAS SO INCREDULOUS THAT CASTIEL WOULD EVEN SAY WHAT HE DID AND GIVE UP LIKE THAT, ESP WITH THE AMULET. D:

JUST, OMG. MISHA BROKE MY HEART IN THIS EP. HIS FACE. OMG, HIS FACE. :((((

JOSHUA IS COOL. YAY, FINALLY ANOTHER GOOD ANGEL BESIDES CAS!

GOD, THIS SHOW.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

ME TOO, BB. ME TOO.

FUCK, THIS SHOW MAKES ME WANT TO HAVE TONS OF CHOCOLATE TO EASE THE DEPRESSION. D:

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

THAT SCENE WITH DEAN AND WEE!SAM WAS JUST SO AMAZING. DEAN HAVING THIS JOYOUS EXPRESSION ON HIS FACE, PERHAPS A RARE MOMENT FOR US TO SEE SUCH PURE JOY FROM HIM. RELIVING A GOOD MEMORY. I TEARED UP THEM, BUT IT WAS HAPPY TEARS.

BUT THE ENDING WAS JUST, GOD. SO FUCKING DEPRESSING. THIS SHOW DOES THAT. STARTS OUT KINDA LIGHTHEARTED ONLY TO END WITH GUT-WRENCHING SADNESS.

IKR? JESUS CHRIST, THIS SHOW. IT DOES THINGS TO ME. I CARE ABOUT THESE CHARACTERS SFM THAT I JUST WANT THEM TO BE ALRIGHT. CASTIEL WAS THE BREAK FOR ME, BECAUSE HE'S ALWAYS HAD THIS FAITH. AND NOW? NOW WHAT WILL HE DO? I JUST DON'T KNOW. I DON'T WANT HIM TO BREAK, I DON'T WANT HIM TO GO DOWNHILL. JUST, NO. DEAN HELP YOUR CASTIEL! D:

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

GOD. THAT WOULD BE HEARTBREAKING IF IT WERE. IN FACT, EVERYTHING THAT DEAN CLINGS TO IS SOMETHING FROM HIS PAST, FROM HIS FAMILY. THE CAR, THE JACKET, THE MUSIC WAS HIS DAD'S. THE MEMORY OF FOOD, PROBABLY FROM HIS MOM. JUST, MY GOD. DEAAANNNN! *HUGS HIM*

ALL HIS MEMORIES HAD TO DO WITH FAMILY. ALL SAM'S MEMORIES HAD TO DO WITH HIM BEING ON HIS OWN, AWAY FROM HIS FAMILY. JUST. OMG.

THIS SHOW CONTINUES TO BREAK MY HEART IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

FUCK ME, ALL OF IT IS JUST SO DEPRESSING. I MEAN, I LOVE HOW THEY SHOW CAN BE HILARIOUS AND COMEDIC AND ACTION PACKED WITH AWESOME SHIT BUT DAMN, WHEN THEY BRING THE ANGST THEY REALLY BRING IT ON FULL FORCE.

I THINK I'M MORE UPSET OVER CASTIEL THAN ANYTHING. LIKE, HE'S BEEN THE SHINING BEACON OF HOPE FOR THE BOYS, DEAN ESPECIALLY. HE'S BEEN THERE SHOWING HIS HOPE, HIS FAITH, EVERYTHING EVEN TO HIS CHARGE THAT DOESN'T BELIEVE IN THE SAME THINGS. BUT SEEING HIM AT THE END OF THIS EPISODE, JUST KINDA GIVING UP? HIS DEVASTATION? THAT BROKE MY HEART MOST OF ALL. IT'S LIKE, FUCK. WHAT NOW? CASTIEL'S MISSION HAS BEEN TO FIND GOD, BUT WITH THIS NEWS WHAT WILL CAS DO NOW? WHERE WILL HE GO? WILL DEAN CONVINCE HIM TO CONTINUE HIS SEARCH? I'M JUST, OMG.D:

I CAN'T ARTICULATE PROPERLY HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW. I'M SAD, BUT IT WAS A FANTASTIC EPISODE. BUT SO DEPRESSING. *BREAKS DOWN AGAIN*

[mulder200.livejournal.com]

OOMG! POOR CAS! POOR DEAN! THEY HAVE BOTH LOST HOPE AND IT'S SO DEPRESSING.

I THINK I FEEL THE WORST FOR CAS THOUGH. AS LONG AS CAS BELIEVED AND HAD HIS FAITH IN GOD, THEN DEAN HAD SOME HOPE BUT NOW. . .CAS HIS LOST HIS FAITH IN GOD. I MEAN WHAT ARE THEY SUPPOSED TO DO NOW?!

WE NEED FANFICTION FAST! SOMEONE NEEDS TO WRITE SOME DEAN/CASTIEL, SAM/CASTIEL OR SAM AND CASTIEL OT SOME TEAM FREE WILL HURT/COMFORT FIC IMMEDIATELY.

AS A MATTER OF FACT, HERE'S ONE NOW:

Broken Knees by mia6363.
http://mia6363.livejournal.com/24356.html

[wingsunfurled.livejournal.com]

I KEEP TRYING TO SAY SOMETHING COHERENT AFTER THIS EPISODE BUT ALL I CAN MANAGE IS - CAAAASSSSSSSSS ;____;

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

MY BB CAAAAASSSS! D: MY HEART, IT BREAKS FOR HIM MOST OF ALL.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I THINK I FEEL THE WORST FOR CAS THOUGH. AS LONG AS CAS BELIEVED AND HAD HIS FAITH IN GOD, THEN DEAN HAD SOME HOPE BUT NOW. . .CAS HIS LOST HIS FAITH IN GOD. I MEAN WHAT ARE THEY SUPPOSED TO DO NOW?!

THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS EXACTLY, BB. I'M LIKE, CASTIEL HAD ONLY TWO THINGS LEFT: HIS FAITH AND BELIEF IN GOD, AND HIS FAITH AND HOPE IN DEAN. AND EVEN IF DEAN DOESN'T WHOLLY BELIEVE, HE IS WILLING TO TRY FOR CAS. NOW, WITH HIS FAITH IN GOD DIMINISHED, OR AT LEAST FAITH IN HIS ENTIRE MISSION, HE FEELS HELPLESS AND HOPELESS. WHICH LEADS TO DEAN FEELING THE SAME, BECAUSE WITHOUT CAS HAVING THAT FAITH ANYMORE IT'S LIKE...WHERE DO THEY GO FROM HERE?

DEAN, NOW IS THE TIME TO HUG YOUR ANGEL, DAMMIT.

I HAVE A FEELING THAT SAM IS GOING TO BE PROVEN USEFUL THIS SEASON BY PATCHING THINGS UP, MAKING AMENDS AND REDEEMING HIMSELF THROUGH GIVING THAT HOPE BACK TO HIS BROTHER AND CASTIEL. FOCUSING HIS ENERGY AWAY FROM THE ANGER BOILING INSIDE OF HIM AND USING IT FOR POSITIVE THINGS. OR SOMETHING.

GOD. I NEED SOME SERIOUS FLUFF AND HURT/COMFORT FIC AFTER THIS. DAMN.

[silverusagi]

SHOW, WHY DID YOU BREAK MY ANGEL?

And where did Castiel go, anyway? He's not searching for God anymore, he needs to stay with Dean, WHO IS ALL HE HAS LEFT.

Throwing away the pendant--NOOOO DEAN. THAT WAS SAMMY'S PRESENT TO YOU. Sam better have fished it out of the trash!

Dean and Little Sam looked so happy with the fireworks. Dean's memory with his mom was bittersweet. Zachariah is CREEPY. Weirdly, Sam seems the most okay at the end of the ep. Maybe going to Heaven and realizing he's not damned will give him the will to say no to Lucifer.

[cheerful-earl.livejournal.com]

THEY BROKE THE ANGEL! WHY DID THEY BREAK THE ANGEL!? OH CASTIEL.

Nothing about this episode wasn't absolutely heartbreaking. Pie! They made pie sad! Even Cas' snarky moments ("Condolences") are sad, because they're so human and I don't want human Future!Cas. I want our Cas. Cas' faith is gone, and Dean can't even help him like he did in "Free to Be" because what little faith he had in his father, God, everything, is just gone.

I loved everyone in this episode, but seriously, how is Misha onscreen for 2.5 seconds and just blows my mind? The man is amazing. His *face* when he was leaning against the partition... Oh.

[squaringkarma.livejournal.com]

SHOW WAS SUFFICIENTLY AWESOME THIS WEEK \O/

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

YES IT WAS! \O/ I'M ALL DEPRESSED AND SHIT BUT IT WAS A FANTASTIC EPISODE ALL THE SAME.

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

BECAUSE THEY LOVE TO TORTURE HIM AND US, THAT'S WHY!! D: D: D:

I DON'T WANT HUMAN FUTURE!CAS EITHER, WHICH I DON'T THINK WE'LL GET, BUT I'M WORRIED FOR HIS SAKE BECAUSE WITHOUT HIS FAITH WHAT ELSE DOES HE HAVE? I MEAN, HE HAS DEAN OF COURSE, BUT IS THAT ENOUGH TO HOLD HIM UPRIGHT? EVEN DEAN WAS LOSING HIMSELF IN THIS EPISODE. IT'S JUST, OH MAN. IT'S BREAKING ME ALL OVER AGAIN.

BUT I GUESS THIS MEANS THAT CAS IS FULLY PART OF THE TEAM NOW, THEY BROKE HIM SO SUFFICIENTLY IN THAT VERY LAST SCENE. AND IT'S NOT SPN UNLESS SOMEONE GETS BROKEN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER.

I JUST HOPE OUR BB CAS GETS HEALED AND REGAINS HIS FAITH AGAIN. AND THAT DEAN GIVES HIM A HUGE HUG. BECAUSE WE NEED THAT HUG, DAMMIT.

GOD, THAT LAST SCENE KILLED ME. MISHA'S FACE!!!! D: BREAKING MY HEART THERE, BB. HE IS AMAZING. HE CAN MAKE ME SQUEE AND THEN WIBBLE TEARFULLY ALMOST INSTANTLY. ;___;

[rogueslayer452.livejournal.com]

I'M WONDERING THAT TOO. HE PROBABLY WENT TO TAKE IT ALL IN, CONTEMPLATE THE NEWS THAT GOD ISN'T GOING TO INTERVENE (AND I HAS META THOUGHTS ON THAT, BUT THAT'LL BE WHEN MY BRAIN STOPS CHURNING NONSENSICAL BLABBER, HEH) OR HE MIGHT GET DRUNK. IDK.

I'M JUST WORRIED ABOUT HIM. I WANT HIM TO CONTINUE HIS SEARCH, DESPITE ALL THAT WAS SAID I WANT CASTIEL TO FIND GOD AND EITHER ASK HIM OR DEMAND THINGS OR WHATEVER. JUST BECAUSE OF WHAT JOSHUA SAID DOESN'T MEAN THAT HE SHOULDN'T TRY. I WAS SAD THAT DEAN DIDN'T CONVINCE HIM OTHERWISE LIKE HE DID IN "FREE TO BE YOU AND ME". BUT THAT'S BECAUSE DEAN, TOO, WAS BROKEN IN THIS EPISODE.

THEY'RE JUST FUCKING WITH THEM SO BAD, AREN'T THEY? WANTING TO BREAK THEM SO THERE'S LITTLE TO NOTHING LEFT OF THEIR FAITH. D:

I'M BETTING SAM DOES FISH IT OUT AND GIVES IT TO EITHER DEAN OR CASTIEL IN THE NEXT EPISODE. BECAUSE HOW COULD HE NOT? IT'S THE AMULET DAMMIT!

ZACHARIAH WAS FUCKING CREEPY IN THIS EPISODE, MORE SO THAN USUAL. HOW HE WAS WITH MEMORY!MARY. *SHUDDERS*

JUST, GOD. THIS EPISODE. I AM SO HAPPY WITH IT, YET IT FEELS ME WITH SUCH SADNESS. ESP FOR CAS. ;___;

[entangled-now.livejournal.com]

I AM HOPING SO HARD THAT SAM FISHED THE AMULET OUT OF THE BIN.

[cheerful-earl.livejournal.com]

THEY DO LOVE TO TORTURE HIM AND US! D: PAIN! HE IS TOTALLY A PART OF THE TEAM FOR REALS NOW BECAUSE HE IS ALL BROKEN LIKE THE WINCHESTERS.

I DON'T THINK WE'LL GET FUTURE!CAS EITHER, BECAUSE DEAN WOULD STOP IT. RIGHT?? BUT TOO I AM WORRIED ABOUT HIM WITHOUT HIS FAITH. IT'S ALL HE WAS HOLDING ON TO, OTHER THAN DEAN. BUT CAS NEVER BELIEVED THEY COULD KILL THE DEVIL; HIS PLAN WAS TO FIND GOD ALL ALONG. AND NOW WITHOUT THAT... I AM SCARED TOO AT CAS' RESENTMENT. IT'S ALL LUCIFERLIKE. *whimpers*

DEAN NEEDS TO GIVE HIM THAT HUG. I NEED TO SEE IT, STAT.

MISHA IS SO EXPRESSIVE. NOT A WORD OF DIALOGUE AND I WENT FROM YAYCAS! TO NOOO! CAS!