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[rogueslayer452]

OMFG NOOOOOOO!!!! CAS, DON'T GIVE UP! PLEASE, DON'T GIVE UP HOPE! D: D: D:

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THIS IS ME RIGHT NOW:



LIKE, OKAY. THIS EPISODE WAS JUST FUCKING AMAZING. SO MANY AMAZING THINGS HAPPENED, FROM THEM DYING AND GOING TO HEAVEN - AN INTERESTING WAY OF LOOKING AT HEAVEN, MATRIX-LIKE AND KINDA SCARY WITH ZACHARIAH AND HIS CRONIES LOOKING FOR THEM - AND THE DREAM-LIKE STATE THEY'RE IN. IT WAS VERY COOL. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, SOOOO FUCKING DEPRESSING AND HEARTBREAKING. LIKE, MY GOD. WHAT THE HELL.

SHOW, WHY DO YOU CONTINUE TO BREAK MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS? YOU BROKE DEAN MANY TIMES, AND NOW YOU'RE SHATTERING MY BB CASTIEL? HIS FAITH IS BEING STRIPPED FROM HIM, AND THAT ENDING JUST, OMG.

I CRIED. I'M NOT ASHAMED TO ADMIT THAT I CRIED BECAUSE CASTIEL IS THE EMBODIMENT OF FAITH FOR DEAN. DEAN HIMSELF IS BUILDING UP WITH THAT FAITH AND HOPE THAT CASTIEL HAS BEEN SHOWING HIM, AND NOW WITH CASTIEL LOSING THAT HOPE AND FAITH? JUST, FUCK. ;____; WHERE ARE THEY NOW? AND HE TOSSED BACK THE AMULET SAYING "IT'S WORTHLESS" AND THEN DEAN THREW IT IN THE TRASH? GOD WHY SHOW, WHYYYYY??? D: D: D:

RIGHT NOW IT SEEMS THAT SAMMY IS THE ONLY ONE WITH THE OUNCE OF HOPE LEFT, DESPITE EVERYTHING. I REALLY REALLY HOPE HE RETRIEVES THE AMULET FROM THE BIN BECAUSE, DAMN.

I JUST. I HAVE NO COHERENT WORDS RIGHT NOW OTHER THAN THAT. PERHAPS MORE LATER. BECAUSE I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT WHAT WE LEARNED HERE.

JUST. GODDAMN.

*GOES BACK CURLED UP IN A BALL CRYING HER HEART OUT*

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I'M WONDERING THAT TOO. HE PROBABLY WENT TO TAKE IT ALL IN, CONTEMPLATE THE NEWS THAT GOD ISN'T GOING TO INTERVENE (AND I HAS META THOUGHTS ON THAT, BUT THAT'LL BE WHEN MY BRAIN STOPS CHURNING NONSENSICAL BLABBER, HEH) OR HE MIGHT GET DRUNK. IDK.

I'M JUST WORRIED ABOUT HIM. I WANT HIM TO CONTINUE HIS SEARCH, DESPITE ALL THAT WAS SAID I WANT CASTIEL TO FIND GOD AND EITHER ASK HIM OR DEMAND THINGS OR WHATEVER. JUST BECAUSE OF WHAT JOSHUA SAID DOESN'T MEAN THAT HE SHOULDN'T TRY. I WAS SAD THAT DEAN DIDN'T CONVINCE HIM OTHERWISE LIKE HE DID IN "FREE TO BE YOU AND ME". BUT THAT'S BECAUSE DEAN, TOO, WAS BROKEN IN THIS EPISODE.

THEY'RE JUST FUCKING WITH THEM SO BAD, AREN'T THEY? WANTING TO BREAK THEM SO THERE'S LITTLE TO NOTHING LEFT OF THEIR FAITH. D:

I'M BETTING SAM DOES FISH IT OUT AND GIVES IT TO EITHER DEAN OR CASTIEL IN THE NEXT EPISODE. BECAUSE HOW COULD HE NOT? IT'S THE AMULET DAMMIT!

ZACHARIAH WAS FUCKING CREEPY IN THIS EPISODE, MORE SO THAN USUAL. HOW HE WAS WITH MEMORY!MARY. *SHUDDERS*

JUST, GOD. THIS EPISODE. I AM SO HAPPY WITH IT, YET IT FEELS ME WITH SUCH SADNESS. ESP FOR CAS. ;___;